Did You Ever..

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Did you ever have a moment or event in your life where you said, screw it all, I’m living for me and choosing to do what makes ME happy?

Oh wow, I only had this ‘moment’ occur, last year; I had realized that the person I was ~~forcing~~ my self to date wasn’t the right guy, and that being in a relationship was NOT worth me being as miserable as I was. Now don’t get me wrong, he never treated me badly per-say BUT it’s everything that he ‘tried’ to do that was just an epic FAIL.

That was me, I was at a such a LOW point after my ex, (well nickname him…R) destroyed what little faith I had left in men. I won’t go into details because that is the past, BUT in that relationship I lost alot of my self. I did many things to make HIM happy, to please him, I kept my mouth shut so we didn’t fight, etc. The good never outweighed the bad, than it just got BAD AS ~~SHIT~~ one night and that’s when I left him. He texted me the next day asking what happened between us because he was so beyond WRECKED when everything went down that he had NO idea what he did or said. I told him what he did and ended it, and I let him know I also wouldn’t ever be taking him back.

Fast forward til January, I met T through mutual friends, things were OK honestly it wasn’t horrible, but as time went SLOWLY by, him not having a stable job, no back bone, and a push over. I had to end it, over the phone in a screaming match I ended it, telling him that it was over and honestly it had to end before it got any worse.

After a bit, I turned 26 and I was devastated, when I was about 16/17 I had imagined my life, married by age 24 baby on the way by 25 and living in a gorgeous 4 bed 3 bath home with a devoted husband by my side. AND WOW was I wrong!!! I had my little hissy fit, cried a bit, and than realized after talking to a few close male friends about my life, they told me the best advice ever; STOP LOOKING FOR LOVE! That was it, I had to take a sit back, enjoy MY life, do things I wanted to do. I got to enjoy my cousin Pam’s 28th Birthday Extravaganza exactly 2 weeks before her wedding and 3 weeks before Super Storm Sandy hit Long Island. I got to enjoy Jon & Pam’s wedding by dancing the night away bare footed and just get on with my bad self.

November had arrived and as everyone started to fix and repair the damages that the super storm had devastated us with, I discovered my self. I had taken an oath with God that I would let HIM choose a man for me, that I had spent too much time searching for ALL of the wrong ones and that it was finally time to let him decide for me. I knew it would take time, and PATIENCE, which is one thing I don’t have much of. But I waited…

After a lot of waiting… on November 30th, this guy… messaged me ‘Hey’ on Facebook, I recognized the name cause we had gone to high school together; he was two years older and I was puzzled as to what he wanted. He asked if we could text instead of message, and he confessed to me, that he liked me and has liked me for quite sometime. I was now stunned, HE liked ME?! He was popular in high school, hung out with the popular kids, most of all? He was skinny, the opposite of me. I proceeded to talk to him until I was falling asleep, than at 2 am I woke up, and he texted me just to text me, and than we talked til he got safely home.

And the rest ? Is history.

That moment of Ah-Ha I had after turning 26 was crucial, was my life how ‘together’ I wanted? NOPE. Is that ok? YUP. Why? cause God had a MUCH different plan than me, and he had the PERFECT guy waiting for me. I am now 27, with the most amazing man ever, whom I couldn’t imagine my life without; he completes me 100% and never belittles me, any thoughts or ideas I may have.

So Anthony, my dear stud muffin of a boyfriend if you are reading this, know this. I have waiting 26 years 2 months and 3 days for a man like you to enter my life, thank you for coming into my life in a whirl wind, and never leaving.

There is no ‘life lesson’ that I have experienced so far that has such a great impact on my life. This was what I’ve needed in my life. It’s okay to be impatient, it’s okay to wonder, but never lose hope that there isn’t a right guy out there for you.

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