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Wednesday, November 6, 2013
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I would change my temper and insecurities; I know it said one thing but those are tied for the top thing I would actually want to change.
My insecurities stem from past relationships and lack there of a relationship with my father {but that’s not what we are gonna talk about today}. When Ant {my boyfriend} and I first started to date it was amazing, so much fun, so cute, cuddly, and perfect; and I thought it wasn’t going to last. I thought it was too good to be true and kept trying to not fall in love with him not realizing I already had fallen in love with him. We started our relationship very slowly and didn’t rush, and slowly we both fell in love with each other. In due time it scared me how much I loved him, and how easily he could have affect on me, that he could literally break me if he left. Than in August {2013} we had the dreaded ex talk…. 8 months after we started dating {better late than never right?}. And we both learned that we both had many insecurities and that’s why we had taken our relationship so slowly, and why we were both afraid to get hurt. Be cheated on and left.
My temper, oy… I don’t know whether or not it’s my Irish side or my Chilean side that I get the temper from but DAMN is it bad. I am a very happy go lucky person, I love to smile and laugh. But once a touchy subject is poked at, or if I am talked down to, or talked to like a child, my voice of reason goes OUT the window. I am very much, punch first, scream second, and talk third. In many situations I wish I could calm my temper down and be able to talk rationally but eh… whatcha gonna do?
I have that same reactionary order when it comes to tough situations. Not sure if that is a good thing lol On another note, trust is something that is earned and not given in my opinion which I think sometimes hurts my relationships. Happy Wednesday!
LOL I don't know either, but that is not easily fixed or dealt with. Oh yeah I feel the SAME way with trust, I will give people an inch of trust to see if they deserve that much. If not they have none at all resulting in no relationship. Trust is a huge thing to me once you lose it it's gone. Happy Wednesday to you too!♥
I react first and think after as well. It's something I've been working on.
Hi! I found your through NaBloPoMo! I am also pretty insecure with myself and my relationships, stemming back to relationships I've had in the past that left me cheated on, emotionally abused, etc. I think those experiences always shape us, but its important that you can acknowledge it, and you and your boyfriend both understand how those experiences make you feel in the present. And taking a relationship slow is never a bad thing 🙂
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